Quitting Fantasies
When I start to feel stressed, my response is often the flight part of “fight or flight”. I’ve got lots of writing to do for graduate school right now and I don’t want to do it. I also have a job that frustrates me. I want to quit both.
So I have to have a little sit down with myself to remind me why any of this is important. During this internal discussion I have to decide if my wanting to quit is because it just seems easier and I don’t want to do any work or if it’s really not a good situation for me. Am I reacting emotionally or is there something to the desire to quit that I should listen to? Should I just suck it up and press ahead or plan a graceful exit? I think that my capstone project for school falls under category one. I’m being a bit lazy about it and I just need to do it. But, I’m pretty sure that my job falls under category two. There are sound reasons to leave and it is not ridiculous for me to believe that there are better working conditions somewhere else.
I don’t think that I’ll be able to actually leave my job in the next few months for some very practical reasons. However, I’ve delayed gratification for a long time already so I think I can do it for another semester or two. But that’s it.
If all goes well, 2009 looks to be a big year of change for me. Just a little work now and hopefully some pay-off in the near future.
